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♥ Tuesday, July 7, 2009

ok maybe not this much
but whatever.
please stop and think maybe?
fot you may think u saw but didn't
yes u didn't really.


Life's Complicated. Nothing's gonna change it...
3:20 AM


♥ Saturday, July 4, 2009

IM BLOGGGGGGGGGGING FINALLY AFTER 100000000000000000000M YEARS

yeahyeah finally bored enough to mian dui my feelings wahaha
it feels so werid to just look back at my last post... realize it was already over then...
oh well, conclusion, he was so yesterday, i have no one today and who knows who will come next tomorrow! i can move too
or actually i have a choice of who will come next tomorrow...
got cosplay festival sia... dno to go not... ...
shall rant about my boliao thots meanwhile... fill up the whole page yo!


1st thing that comes to my mind:

realize some guy wasnt as godlike as i thot he was
bloody asshole but my impression of him was based on looks in 1st place ._.
nvm hes still an asshole bloody hell got chiobu dun care other tinq liao
tink only his studies so impt walao study so much also no use lyk siying teh de arni kuan rite?
its lyk e group at first we all very excited i noe nw lyk nt v successful but still im disappointed as well!
but not disheartened lorh... i
really want to find out the best for our project and really succeed in it as well
we all wanted this project so that our record will look nice,
now u cn dsa quite cfm qt in dhen dun care liao isit?!
its called selfish lorh nowonder he last time also lyk dht call u selfish sia
if dhrs anybody i regret supportin, it ll b u
chickenwing


2nd thing that comes to my mind:

i wonder how long can a misunderstanding last,
i know some can last forever
i dun want ours to last so long, building a higher wall each day
it feels so weird talkin to u nw
treated u e best, is it not enough for u to belive me?
dno y she nd restort to lookin for FF larh...
mayb its jus pure friendship bt still...
could feel the distance widening between us even dou we are jus nxt to each other
what can i say/do to make us the same once more?
actually i qt it, or at least i qt a theory
u wan friends dhts all u wan no matter qd or bad or kns or from opposite cliques
u dun choose dhem its okae, its really fine...
but dun u tink its highly superfical if u double cross both sides?
i really doubt u understand e meanin of friendship... not that i hav ani rights to comment on it...
but still...
i ll continue treatin u e same... u dun noe hw impt u r to mi/hw much i lyk u


3rd and most impt thing:

i know alot of pple r happier dht me and him r nt anth anymore
i dno ur is happy dht im no longer with a 'sarky' person lyk him or what larh...
but all i know is everybody has deir weakness and strengths
i lyk his strengths n happen to lyk what ur dun lyk abt him cn?
dno larh bt same to friends,
to the pple i lyk i cn forgive n forget easily and dun reli care much abt deir weakness lorh... dun care if ur agree not larh
jus feel ur have no reason to b happy lorh
cuz its lyk im depressed and ur happy for me for becomin sad
know i dun appear as sad as im bt still...
u wan mi cry whole day qib u see mehs
even my parents understand that i sad lorh =.=
love my bros fer understandin me and e situation as well as truely say whats e best for me
jus wondered if somebody was happy cuz i am finally sad cuz i lost a zhui-qiu zhe, a future bf, somebody by my side, somebody who understands me, which is what she alwaes wanted
jus realize if it was true, what would our friendship be?

thot abt what was said in busstop ytd...
i look out for abnormal pple pple hu wld stand out in e crowd,
pple hu are special,werid, unnormal or jus specially talented in some areast
houqh i do not admire all, but still dhis is my taste lorh
like dun like is depend on brain waves lai de
too bad our signal nt same larh,
no nd discriminate until arni kuan
i noe ur e taste is ou xiang ji de
bt truelly, him, though imperfect is e closest to my perfect bf: Jay rite?
i admire yiqing also lorh + zhaoting + xinlin + kamal + alot other pplei even admire my hpy... admire deir strengths cuz i zhong shi dhem cnt arh?

i noe i sark im nt perfect everything my fault larh happy?
its fu yan i noe
bt if nt fuyan u wan mi say my real thots qib ur shoot/disagree mehs?
i understand sometimes i tink differently
bt dhts wad i want n ll nt change lo
i tink i wrong i say sryi dun tink i wrong bobian lorh
dun reli care no money earn no counted in exam no pple die

i cnt stand pple shoot de u try kena shoot by ur whole clique larh,
by e pple u grown to trust and liked so much
try havin dhem all go agnst u fer dno fck reason
and nt evityme i wrong lorhu imagine u say e blue pen blue, dhen dhey say black shoot u + suan till u xi cuz e pen is BLACK =.=
bt nvm larh i wrong ok i wrong
i qt shoot fwens until dhey die even dou dhey wrong b4 nt? i dun tink so rite?
i do wad i wan loit may be called spoilt,
bt i belive its e best way to treat myself n live life w/o regrets
i rather, i rather regret doin stuff dhen regret nt doin stuff bt wadever larh...
whats past is past lorh
dou it ll continue to haunt me for life i quess
nw i noe y qing evityme dun care say anth anth de
bt i nt evityme cn lyk dht lorh...
i hav emotions too n pride n zhi zhun
bt nvm its stil i wrong ok?


4th:

recently gt alot of pple kai shi mug lo
wtf man mugmugmug dun wan pei mi play walaoeh
lyk i no nd mug lyk dht sias
o gan chiong fer wad sia
i noe i lyk dht say my os dun qt qd qrades sure dio shoot de bt seriously larh
u miss out all e fun in life jus fer some dumb grades
which qt u into probaly a v qd jc bt stil u learn same tinq rite?!
mayb pirorities different bah...


5th:

tink im losin myself
feels werid the way i talk, e way i do stuff, e way i tink all different liao
its different frm hw i behave fer e past yr, and even how i usually behave b4 sec3 lehs!!!
feels lyk my EQ became 0 =.= ( dun care if ur tink it was already 0 liao)
bt e way i talk 2 pple
i cnt maintain a conv fer mre dhen 10mins i actually run out of tings to say
i cnt tink of anitinq random/cute/unusual/interestin to say lorh.... = I BECAME BORING
dhis sarks man dhis sarks alot...
also last time nomatter who i also cn talk to de
now i actually block pple to prevent dhem from talkin to me
dhis is bad man dhis is bad i might end up losin pple and regret it ltr on agn...


doneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee abt my rants wooo
haiz ohya i dun lyk faraday
he dumb hell smart so what man?
no nd discover e stupid emf/magnetic field tingy/transformers=.=/current tingy lorh...
walao if zhaoting or somebody nxt tyme also lyk dht make my children suffer more hor
i ll also jidong man!
1st wk of school jus ended nt bad larh...
lyk 1/4 of e class e chers absent =D
dhen we hav kamal<3 fer at least 1 period n bullied amy ang in e other =DD
class feels werid dou...
lyk i dno anth...
n nt in anth as well...
mayb dhrs jus isn anth... hmm
exchanged places with pple at e back...
complained to sombody dht it sarks cuz if dhey somebody elses,
at least i cn make 2 new fwens nw cn only leng leng de disturb jw nxt to mi D=

like chye more n more,
realize he reli dedicated cher hu has e students' interest at heartlike he ll jidong if u dun do stuff instead of ignorin u and he reli lyk sincerly want to chuan shou zhi shi to us...
dno hw say larh...
bt leow<3 is gona leave us fer 2wks or more...
haiz he left with 'don't miss me'
dhen i realize i reli ll miss him lo! D=
tml/ltr in e day dno hw sia...
want to run bt nd slp alot...
i shall run on mon! =X
shld i go e cosplay tingy? alone sia... D=
anw gtg... slp
dhis post was writen arnd 0300-0415 040709 bt shld b posted e nxt day cuz my internet kena off D=


0342am 050709

xuan jus signed off...
was complainin abt another FF lols CAI
tink i over said bad stuff abt her
bt seriously cnt stand qurls lyk her
qurls lyk her turn mi off qurls man =.=
today was borin
dou managed to plan to meet up psch pple tml~
shall hope no leng chang or sth...
read cai blog
realize my philophobia no cured yt even aft watch iswak ._. bobianzx D=
watched tyra banks<3 show jus nw... was abt male minds
dam farni discuss abt sex and yeah stuff
my bro dno wad was brazilian =X i tink jw dno either...
still tell him aft he asked fer 2mins... wondered if i said e wrong ting...
he was surprise hw i knew sia... read it off reader's digest i tink... n xiaxue's blog... >.>
reminded mi of hw i knew sth prono ytd...
seriously dno sia i rmb i qt watch de bt i seriously wun watch mus b click on somebodi qib mi e link... or watch wif bro ._. OMG DHTS EVEN WORST

i tink fb rawks larhh! lyk its e most entertainin tinq ever
n love discriminatin aqnst china pple wif qing lols dam farni stupid sia dhem
harrypotter <3

LIST OF MOVIES I WANT TO WATCH:

1) HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE -- my father say cn watch on saturday 110709 at night de or e earliest lyk zomq larh its e 1st few man woohoo

2) DUPLICTY -- no kaki abt spies v nice de

3) GI JOE -- lyk battle royale sia COPY bt still interestin...

4) ICE AGE 3 -- wads e point of watchin e 1st n 2nd n dun watch e 3rd?

5) EVERYTHING -- i love movies!

oh anybody heard of cube series e movie??
i tink its dam nice psychotic triller/horror/sci-fi
dam kool cn play durin chalet tink its dam interestin
watched half of cube 2 at 1am ._.

ok tata~ 0352 050709
oh im decidin whether my fav color is black grey red or silver ._.
black unlucky fer mi bt i love it
red too common
silver n grey i lyk dhem fer e least amount of time ._.
hmm...

就在一转眼发现你的脸已经陌生不会再像从前/总在刹那间有一些了解 说过的话不可能会实现 -- 吻别

音量太小 --大嘴吧


[x-Julia-x]

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Life's Complicated. Nothing's gonna change it...
12:33 PM


♥ Thursday, July 2, 2009

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?Emptying-KimJun(my piggy bank is emptying)
WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?Hypnotic dance-.--BoA(i dun dancee)
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?Step and go-Arashi(yea wanted to step out and go out of aa lesson tdy)
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?Ban qing ge-yuan ruo lan(bu neng ban tu er fei!!!)
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?ge wo yi shou ge de shi jian-jay chou(5mins.TKVM)
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?DNA-BY2(yea DNA is chim stuffs)
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?yi ju hua-zhuo wen xuan(nah lots yo~)
WHAT IS 2 + 2?21 guns-greenday(i didn't know i have this song sia.imma gonna fail maths again)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?dress off-BoA(not exactly.she's traditional)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?cheng yao-show(he's somewhere far far away not backing me-.-)
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?ke bu ke yi ai wo-lu xue rui(that's a saddening one then)
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?wo bu xiang wang ji ni-guo jing(superpower? extra good memory?that'll be useful for exams!)
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?Tobira no mukou-HSJ(i'll probably spring back from de dead)
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?the boys are back-HSM(eh the dance is cool!)
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?sunny days-accuracy of death(yea.life does get better sometimes;D)
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?chao xi huan ni-fei lun hai(haha hanakimi.stare at gays probably-.-)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?bu xiang dong de-zhang shao han(i seriously have no idea)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?holdng on-simple plan(we are all holding on till october)
WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?liu xia lai-fei lun hai(yea i won't stay on earth forever)
WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?yue lai yue ai-fei lun hai(that's not really a sad song)
WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?mirage-AAA(that's not exactly a happy song)
WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?dui shou-zhong ji san guo(not really.sometimes they spur me on)
HOW WILL YOU DIE?wo jiu shi zhe yang-liu li yang(just how i ma lol)
WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?ying gan-BY2(marrriage dies requires some bravery)
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?a little bit longer-jonas bros(yea a little bit longer till i have to work so that they can enjoy life-.-)
DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?rondo-OnOff(vampire?edward please!)
WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?gu dan mo tian lun-fei lun hai(lonely~~so lonely~~i have nobody of my own~~)
IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?liang nan-guo meimei(yea that probably)
WHAT WOULD YOU SAY, WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS?everytimes good times-pan wei bo(how can anytime of working be good???)
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?now or never-HSM(never)

LOL diao.happy?


Life's Complicated. Nothing's gonna change it...
7:10 AM


♥ Sunday, June 7, 2009

lalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i'm boreddddddddddddddddddd
why is everyone at campD;


saw@ flickr...
this phone is cool rightttttttt
i want a jap phone!
or can any sg phone company come up with a jap lookalike phoneD;
lala
but i'm bankruptD;
gonna watch monsters vs. aliens with a monster later
hopefully i can survive-.-
tata-byebye!


Life's Complicated. Nothing's gonna change it...
11:27 PM


♥ Friday, June 5, 2009






SPORTS CARNIVAL!
it's the last one i'll ever spend in anderson;D
and the one i certainly enjoyed the most.
i think we all went crazy
everyone just shouted like some siao zha boh for captain's ball
and yes!
WE WON!
lala~;D
haha i think this is the frist time time we are so united man
we just screamed for any 4/5-ians who got the ball!
and if there's some best cheerleading award i think we'll win sia
4/5! 4/5!

the pushball match against 4/4 was ultimate
shout until i almost died can
damn long
''then you scream scream scream then the ball still stays at the same spot''
quoted from julia xiao jie.
but then worth it lah cause 4/5 won again!

and we had lessons for like everyday of week one
keesiao one leh
lessons start at 8
which is i have to wake at 6.30-.-
siaooooooooooooooooo~~
so i ponned all the first lesson
too lazy to wake up
and slept through on friday
i missed kamal~~~~~~
KAMALLLLLLLLLLLL
sian.....
it's de only lesson that i was looking forward to leh....
sigh
and the pile of holiday hmk is piling up
and i dun feel like touching it
and then there's sombody who already finished 4 chem paper liao-.-


this looks like a happy family portrait to me;D
ikea has nice hotdogs!


watched terminator salvation yesterday with joyce,julia,yiqing,junwei and david
and it's a flim full of gun shots and explosions
and i sway sway have to sit beside joyce
and kena scolded by her throughout the movie
cause i jumped-.-
eh what's wronggggggg man
how i know the man will suddenly fire
and the door will explode-.-
karls reeze??? is cute!
and we went to macs so that i could eat
omggggggggggg
top 10 fuck list!
not bad yo~~
and today is 6/6/09!
it's hua er FLORENCE'S 16 BIRTHDAY!
hua errrrrrrrrrr
16 liao wor
but must stay cute and chubby ok!
*love love!*




this song is nice
addicitve;D


Life's Complicated. Nothing's gonna change it...
11:16 PM


♥ Thursday, March 19, 2009

IMBACK!!!

yeshh after being inactive for so long, i finally have the courage to post something without trying to put some blog viewer counter on =.= (private story which probaly nobody would wanna listen blehh)

yeshh reason for posting: im home alone and im freakin lonely =[
2nd reason for posting: decided not to procastinate this post and wanna put my thoughts from the last few days in words

Just thought about how human change their minds so easily
or difficult-ly
like imagine one day you were exclaiming how you hate this person and this kind of people,
and some other day,
when you probaly forgotton of the comment you last made
and starts to like that person
its espcially funny,
when you had influence some other people from your previous comment
and now you have trouble trying to figure out what the hell you was/is thinking now
like me.

It goes with things as well bah
or style or just any random stuff
like this random thought

Actually
i thought about how fast a person can change his/her mind on the person he/she liked/loved
heard a story about this guy whose girlfriend of 2 years left him because she realized there is some other guy in her heart or something =.= (not my buisness nor my story)
i thnk that is a lame excuse
there's probaly other external factor or something but still
the point is
it led me to remember why i had philiphobia in the first place...
the commitment thingy sucks
but i guess it's essential...

how come i cannot get to the point >.<
okae lets get to the fucking point :
some things need to be made clear bahh
to me at least in words x.x
fill up the missing info

1)
ithinkilikehimhelikemetooiguess
butourstatueskeeplikethatforaveryfuckinggoodreason
ourparentshavenoobjectionsiguessatleastformine
ihavealotofinterestinknowingwhohasbecauseofmykponature
buthaveabsolutelynointentionsofcaring
callmewhateveryouwantbahbuteverythingelsethatoncematteredtomestillmattersofequalimportanceiguess

2)
just cannot take it any longer must say this out but i only dare say it in words so here goes
this blog have no bloody viewers and im proud of it
hardly anybody views it
and only one person i know so far link it
and probaly like less than 10 people read it before
and i bet there are only a few of them read it regulary =.=
so don't anyhow talk shit say what alot css ande nyp people read
you think i xiaxue is it?!
this blog for me to rant
for me to voice out my opinion
for me to remember what happened in my life
thought i know that this is posted on the world wide web and can be viewed by anybody whos wants
and i ought to take responsibily in whatever i say,
and i do i guess, to a certain extend
to the extend that no specific names would be mentioned,
or if they are, probally of no importance or to describe an event
so i guess, you can't say anything bad about me bahh =D
*replace all 'me' with me + jw =D

3)
im studying for God sake
or actually, for my own and him<3 =.=
stop having the impression that im slacking! (to a cher, my parents people =/)
stupid
okae
i slack alot
but that doesn't mean i can't do well right?! acutally it does affect...
blehh
im being forced to study every single second of my life for don't know what 6pointer shit
and i just got afraid that i couldn't blehh
but the point is
i shall do enough to acheive my target
and i shall archeive my target... i guess... foryoukaeszz

4)
i wan Mr Kamal<3 lurhh
blehh
fullstop sia i don't want AA
bloody hell
i don't mind failing my ss, considering i failed it already =.=
because Mr Kamal<3 was strict in the marking or because i didn't do well for essay
blehh AAS lurhh



TODAY

lets start at 0000 =DD
was sleeping till 0200 =D
0200: did bio tys (see i got do work!) not bad larh all scored 75% (nutrition and transport!)
0315: woke some pig up / on com pig went back sleep played ms solitiare talked to bdae boi =]
0400: woke the pig up plaed dd!
0515: pig went back sleep continued playin puzzle game <3
0600: wondered why i want go school so early bathe
0635: out of the house!
0800: had the nicest walk to school so far =]
0920: watched 4-6vs 4-5 omg lurhh my kor stil rawks dou 4-5 won jinghui<3 syazwan the sexiest<3
1030??: watched match of the day, 4-4 vs 4-5
it started out hot i think
then it got hotter
me and michelle freakin jidong sia
esp me =D
i tink freakin kool
din reli regret mi nt bein inside, watchin is so much btr sia
totally sark that 4-4 won
but i guess cnt do anth abt it bah...
jus sark dht e 4-4 qurls plaed so rough =.=
proud of njx dou, kinda regret sayin her lan on tues
bt mayb as mich said, she mite qton scoldin =X
sark score was 9-10 =.=
it was 9-8 1st lurh wtf
sark sark sark
*()(@)_(_)%(_)@#$@)(#@
was reli jidong aft e match
sry i vent my anqer on u
1100: spamed lib printer blehh
1230: went to hub buy chicken then come back
i think i lie under the catorgory where i just diao people out of self defense or becaues i am afraid/ low confidence bah...
dunno... guess esp when im alone, people stare me i diao back bah >.>
1315: went back to school played with badminton people then ate pizza/kfc jiaolian <3
1715: went home kup somebody call, guess i got tired =X
1940: left house empty to the central sticky...
1830: return home to find house empty just as i left it =.= lonely lehhs =[
oh gosh im lonely =.=
wondered hw i managed to survive the day without you
but i guess everyday is geting slower wtf
haiz
bloged till now bah...

last thing i wana mention
somebody close to me somebody i liked told me today asked me causally
a question im quite sure about the answer, but ask myself too sometimes
a question many asked, but few agree/support
she wasn't one of the few bah
known her for years
she asked the second question
something i questioned myself until school ended
until i saw my reflection
until i realized
that i guess somethings cannot be explained
that prehaps im not good enough for anybody better too
that she, as well as many others, don't see what i see in him or at least portray to me as said by jw =.=
that i guess, unique people have unique taste bah as what px would suan =.=
my taste could be better, but i guess, taste are only for tastebuds and the nutritional value and others count bah...

lastly
i would really like to give 6 roses back to you
and
'i wanna be yours' they would say.



we could pretend all we want and remain childish
or we could come to a consensous maturally
defining what is wrong and what is right
and understand the situation as a whole

其实人很多 却觉得寂寞 是不是心理作用 OK不OK
This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us - Stop and Stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere - Stop and Stare
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone - Love Story

need ta mugg buaiizxzx



x- Julia

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Life's Complicated. Nothing's gonna change it...
5:42 AM


♥ Wednesday, March 4, 2009

muahaha
i think daphne is cute
and lame. so totally true;D
and yes i shall paste everyhting that's she pasting to me now.



PISCES - THE SEX ADDICT (2/19-3/20) EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. BEST kisser. Always get what they want. Very Attractive. Easy going. RARE Find. GOOD when found. Loves being in long relationship. Talkative. Romantic. Caring. NOT one to mess with.
i am not adorable.intelligent maybe?i love to joke.i have a good sense of humore?i am energetic?predict future,maybe?haven try before sia.i dun always get what i wantD;i am not attractiveD;i am easygoing.i am rare???i am talkative.romantic?i am caring and not to be messed with.
PISCES - The Dreamer
Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative and imaginative. May become secretive and vague. Sensitive. Don't like details. Dreamy and unrealistic. Sympathetic and loving. Kind. Unselfish. Good kisser. Beautiful.

soo poor how be generous.i am kind;Di am thoughful;D creative and imaginative?secretive and vague?am i disappearing???i am sensitive?depends.i am dreamy and unrealistic?no i am very prctical.i am sympathetic and loving!i am kind unselfish.wah bu zhun siaD;
PISCES - The Partner for Life
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. Messy at times and irresponsible! Smart but lazy. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Passionate, wonderful lovers. Fun to be around. Too trusting at times and gets hurt easily. Lover of animals. VERY caring, make wonderful nurses or doctors. They always try to do the right thing sometimes get the short end of the stick. They sometimes et used by others and hurt because of their trusting. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. Good friend to other but need to be choosy on who they allow their friends to be.

center of attention?sometimes messy and irresponsible lah.yes smart and lazy.high appeal-.-hihi i am not a non-living thing of course cannot keep.i dun want be doctor later kill somebody how?i am weird???i am humorous and thoughtful!
PISCES
The Piece of ass. Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. Too Sexy,
Very high ### appeal. Has the last word. The best to find, hardest to
keep. Fun to be around.
Freak in the sheets. Extremely weird but in a good way. Super good in bed.
Good Sense of
Humor!!! Thoughtful. A partner for life. Always gets what he or she wants.
Loves to joke.
Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet

siao siao next time ask my husband.LOL-.-and not popular leh. i am not silly i am clever and no sugar how be sweet???

VIRGO - THE BEST SEXUAL PARTNER (8/23-9/22) Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. EXTREMELY SEXY. Predict future. Loves being in long relationships. Has lots of friends. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Also not a fighter, but if they have to, they will also knock the lights out of you if it comes down to it.Cool. Loves to own Geminis' in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.
daphne is nice and intelligent and YES VERY SEXY!woo~ CAN FIGHT SIA.daphne like not really good in sports leh... freaking lame person and yes smart!
VIRGO - The Perfectionist
Dominant in relationships. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to. Hard to please. Harsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic.
dominant?conservative?yea she dun like noise.hardworking???maybe haha. yes she is chio! and easy to talk to.practical but not very shy leh and where pessimistic???
VIRGO
The Virgin Dominant in relationships. Sexy. someone loves
them right now. Freak in bed. Always wants the last word. Caring.
Smart. Intellectual. Attractive. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Hard to
forget
Love at first sight. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one
and only. Ultimate sexiness.

SEXYYYYYYY.oh got admirer wor.easy to talk to;D ULTIMATE SEXINESS!
VIRGO - The One that Waits
Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. A pushover. Loves to gamble and take chances. Needs to have the last say in everything. They think they know everything and usually do. Respectful to others but you will quickly lose their respect if you do something untrustworthy towards them and never regain respect. The do not forgive and never forgetThe one and only.




i can therefore only conclude i am a pisces in disguise only a bit like pisces sia.i think my mama pick me from dustbin then suka give me one birth date one-.- and daphne is sexy! muahahahaha;D


Q 1:什麼星座的人最情緒化? > > > >
第 1名 處女座 1,573 票 17% 第 7名 牡羊座 613 票 6% > >
第 2名 巨蟹座 1,021 票 11% 第 8名 金牛座 605 票 6% > >
第 3名 雙魚座 958 票 10% 第 9名 射手座 598 票 6% > >
第 4名 雙子座 810 票 8% 第10名 天秤座 559 票 6% > >
第 5名 天蠍座 792 票 8% 第11名 獅子座 501 票 5% > >
第 6名 水瓶座 661 票 7%
heh heh.true leh!
Q 2:什麼星座的人最有異性緣? > > > >
第 1名 獅子座 2,001 票 28% 第 7名 牡羊座 529 票 7% > >
第 2名 天秤座 746 票 10% 第 8名 水瓶座 342 票 4% > >
第 3名 雙魚座 652 票 9% 第 9名 金牛座 293 票 4% > >
第 4名 雙子座 595 票 8% 第10名 巨蟹座 278 票 3% > >
第 5名 天蠍座 568 票 8% 第11名 魔羯座 249 票 3% > >
第 6名 射手座 564 票 8% 第12名 處女座 198 票 2%
hai hao leh...
哪個星座的女生最難追? > > > >
第 1名 處女座 2,329 票 23% 第 7名 金牛座 720 票 7% > >

第 2名 天蠍座 1,426 票 14% 第 8名 射手座 566 票 5% > >
第 3名 魔羯座 862 票 8% 第 9名 天秤座 509 票 5% > >
第 4名 雙子座 807 票 8% 第10名 巨蟹座 452 票 4% > >
第 5名 水瓶座 780 票 7% 第11名 牡羊座 399 票 3% > >
第 6名 獅子座 768 票 7% 第12名 雙魚座 398 票 3%
wahhhhhhh.should try asking some pro.
Q 5:哪個星座的人說話最毒? > > > >
第 1名 天蠍座 2,693 票 27% 第 7名 水瓶座 650 票 6% > >

第 2名 雙子座 1,121 票 11% 第 8名 牡羊座 637 票 6% > >
第 3名 處女座 1,031 票 10% 第 9名 天秤座 457 票 4% > >
第 4名 射手座 848 票 8% 第10名 金牛座 408 票 4% > >
第 5名 獅子座 704 票 7% 第11名 雙魚座 357 票 3% > >
第 6名 魔羯座 674 票 6% 第12名 巨蟹座 354 票 3%
true!supported by daphne!
>Q 8:哪個星座的人最懶惰? > > > >
第 1名 射手座 682 票 16% 第 7名 雙子座 296 票 7% > >
第 2名 金牛座 620 票 15% 第 8名 牡羊座 261 票 6% > >
第 3名 雙魚座 428 票 10% 第 9名 天蠍座 222 票 5% > >
第 4名 天秤座 343 票 8% 第10名 巨蟹座 221 票 5% > >
第 5名 獅子座 316 票 7% 第11名 魔羯座 201 票 4% > >
第 6名 水瓶座 314 票 7% 第12名 處女座 191 票 4% > >
and so true again!proven by a lot ppl sia~


PISCES FEBRUARY 19 â€" MARCH 20
The only thing that can be said about you dreamers is that you appear even more attractive when angry. You are very sensitive to others’ feelings, so you rarely hurt them. But when others tend to hurt you, then things take a nasty turn. You will yell and use harsh words and feel inclined to shake everything and everyone up. Your creative imagination is at its best when angry, and you tend to get pretty dramatic. When upset, you refuse to listen to reason and wish to be left alone. But once you calm down, you repent your tantrums and seek forgiveness. SO nobody can be upset with you for too long.



VIRGO AUGUST 22 â€" SEPTEMBER 21
Most of you are gentle and have full control over your emotions but those of you given to temper tantrums can certainly get violent. When see things with rage, you yell and shout and tend to break things lying close at hand. You can even harm yourself by banging your hands on a glass top table or wall. You should never get into any argument, for you are a sore loser. You feel that others are trying to persecute you and don’t quite respect your opinions. When hurt, you can also hold grudges forever.



hmmmmmmmmmmm.
this is the most true one lol.heh
i am still high over the fact that daphne is sexy
hahahahhahaha;D
DAPHNE IS SEXY!
oh yea yixuan's test
ps ar i do another day.
today dun feel like thinking.
it's 9.30 and i haven finish anything all thanks to daphne-.-

-jiawen;D


iamtired
timetostopourchildishways
bothofus.


Life's Complicated. Nothing's gonna change it...
4:53 AM



Dear Heart <3,>
i met a boy today, prepare to shatter.
With love, your hormones

added the last line inspired by bio lesson today =D
line from Ching Yee requested by nicole when she wan emo quotes for somebody's birthday hahas
lets list tinqs dht happen and make mi gan chu liang duo nw

1)whether or not i qt 2 watch tv cuz joejoe is infnt of it nw n news is at 2130 =.=

2) today maths lesson
or after maths lesson wadever blehh actually during
pengsan-ed when i saw the paper kns sia
its seriously as DaiLi said- worst dhen amaths paper T.T
bt dhts nt e point bah...
wasnt really worryin/thinkin about it anw
but still stupid test 1st test i c le dhen auto pengsan qib up hope
i qt hope osho dno hw do reli stone diao catch no ball T.T
i hate circles
think im qona fail my emaths...
mayb cuz i din study bt stil i tink even if i studied oso no use bah >.<
haiz but wadever i qt my 2As le bah =DD

3) wad i was worryin/thinkin abt durin maths test
dno lehs jus pissed i alwaes dno e qns to e test dou i considered closest bt wadever
its jus nt riqht to noe e qns b4 hand anw n its nobody's fault bt mine bah
jus i din qt my qns answered even dou i asked alot of tymes bt nvm
fck it bah its okae its jus mi im too sensitive n i kan help it
i just love my kor he is nice n he noes hw to comfort mi =] mayb cuz he noe mi lonqer bah...
and to Istar and i tink YaHui, hes nt my stead hes jus my no.1 kor dou i oni hab 1 kor =X
some things jus sae to certain people dhey ll listen better, noe what to sae btr/ react jus e way i wan/like , i mean evibodi react differently, if i tel u, u wun sae the same, thus wun make mi feel the same n hence i din tell u or else u would say thinqs i dun like as u ll react differently. omq i love connectors =X i tink Mr Poh ll like mi too

4) my stupid hpy has a stead
okae dhts lyk so ytd news bt
her stead kns!
or at least i tink so muhahaha
wahahah =X
fat fat look lyk pig de! =X
n looks stupid too! muhahaha
omq he cfm qt double chin n he seriously look fat nt lyk JianShen cute cute shuai shuai de =D
lalalaaaaa
bt i tink his hand is either on her waist/or machine and e other hand on her ass/ or i seein tinqs
bt dhen muhahaha
i dun care cuz hes fat n uqly n probaly dumb =D

5) stupid busy life
dumb y mus evitinq clash?
ahhh shldn hab wanted e jap pple come my hse dumb
waste my tyme space tots btr qib mi chiochio de
grrr
have performance dhis sunday larhh nd practise
hw come ur dun understand?
wtf
i quess pple jus dun understand hw much i love dancin bah n hw qd my crew is
1stly i actually qt a portfolio
2ndly im actually doin wad i like
3rdly dhey are nice and trustworthy n slack pple as well + talented
hw qd is dhis? blehh
anw i tink i stoppin fer awhile aft june bah...
jus too busy x.x

6) me not payin attn in class
i dno y i jus cnt pay attn in class =/
sec 1 sec 2 i ll jus tok n tok n tok n sms alot of pple at e same tyme
sec 3 i oso tok 2 florence/jiawen all e tyme n continue sms-in pple
sec 4 nw i oso tok even more
quess e only diff is nw sec 4 mre impt? + i tink tok until v hiqh =X
bt bobianzxzx last tyme is zi hiqh de
nw is lyk found a new playmate =X
nvm mayb i shld try to listen durin class...
dou i kan x.x nvmm tryyyyy =.=

7) i qt hiqher dhen e bloody teh de =DD
or rather e teh de qt freakin low
even if nt considerin my marks, she qt relatively lower to pple who qt e test wif her muhahah =X
and u sae i chao? its ur own fault bahhh =D
and i admit dht my chem test i din do it all by myself
bt still, fer e 1st test i qt nth sae larh dou i qt ask u chanqe ur self, u dun wan i cn oni sae ty sry lorh
dhen fer e 2nd test dou i qt e mcqs
bt i stil do it myself lurhh n all tally okae...
dou is i sae nia larh bt stil ur riqht bah bt stil
i tink olvls most impt bah, if u or anibodi hav wad yi jian i nth sae lorh bobianzxzx dhish ish mi dhish ish my life i wan it dhis wae ur oso cnt do anth bahh

8) i hadn't been happy lately
as in happy happy,
happy fer a reason
happy because its natural
happy cuz dhrs no other neqative feelin cuz dhrs none, or even btr, cuz i kan rmb ani
i dno y
does zi hiqh-in means im happy?
i quess nt bah, at least to me
i dno y bt i tink im qtin tired bah
if ur tink zi hiqh v ez, dhen tink aqn bahh
i tink its tirin mi, even dou i choose to zi hiqh larh
bt dhen, wad else could i do? okae pay attn durin class =.=
i dun wan my life to b sho borin lehhs
sch is e only time i spend wif my fwens bah, 1 of e qrp of pple dht matters most nw,
i dun wan 2 jus sit nxt to dhem n stone =.=

dhis few daes nth much happen bahhh
borin borin lifeeee
jus kena shoot by chye =.=
ask him ki see shuddup larh nabei
nvm i shal nt sae further
bt i quess i kan prove myself due to e stupidity in emaths tests =.=

haiz pe finally ran,
realize my stamina drop alot alot dno hw sia
i wan qt trophy fer e cross country... tsktsk
mayb? try? hahas
if nt dhrs alwaes napfa =q

haiz end of rant bah
i jus hope dht cca ends soon,
n fri sat quickly end soon bah tsktsk
i shall find a wae to enjoy myself mean while =/
as well as mug >.<

the next time we meet would be when our cars collide -- Winnie


I can show you how to fly and never ever come back down - Lay Your Hands On Me

Cause if there's something better baby well thay haven't found it yet - Bad Medicine

ooh, she's a little runaway. no one heard a single word she said. -- Runaway


x- Julia

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Life's Complicated. Nothing's gonna change it...
4:18 AM


♥ Wednesday, February 25, 2009

yo~
officially 16 for like 10 hours liao.
yesssssssssss.
25/2/09;D
thanks to kiuyan
bahchiu
junying(:
frederick
zhuliya
sala chew
kunyan
yixuan
syazwan
nan nan
fangxian
priscilla
cheryl
ahkuah
michelle for their birthday wishes!
and the class for their birthday song;D
though i dunno why some ppl said i turned bright red after they sang it.
thanks daphne for your doggie and cow!
thanks nan nan and wangzhe for their perfume!
thanks bocheng for his piglet thinggy. speaking of which he only has abt 2 hours left to be 15 before he crosses the 16 border;D welcome bocheng;D
thanks yixuan,joyce and yiqing for another cow! very nice to hug yo~
thanks junying for her shirt-dress;D ur crossing the 16 line in less than 3 days time!;D
and to zhuliya for my xl moriji;D
went off with my chiobu to cathay to catch a movie after school
wanted to watch slumdog millionaire
but then hor that person dun allow cause my chiobu got 3 days left
wah piang like that also dun allow...
watch he's just not that into you instead
in front is like bored like siao can somemore no link
fell asleep and my chiobu had to wake me up
haha paiseh leh
but behind become more funnny and nice to watch;D
heh gan xie my chiobu for accompaning me tdy
it's like nan de she got day off from guides
but then had to pei me;D
haha thanks.
paiseh leh you had to miss half of ur menglong.

and let's mark this wonderful day with a rainbow
which we saw after the movie;D






Life's Complicated. Nothing's gonna change it...
5:19 AM


♥ Saturday, February 21, 2009

?'You'll never know what's in for you'

phrase from The curious case of Benjamin Button...
guess it's true bah...
who would know?
i want to be in control of my own life fate destiny
but who on earth could do that?
few can do so much bah...
and the few,
are either
very very very rich like Donald Trump <3 color="#000000">and maybe forever
be like the top 3,
and since i don't want to be very poor,
i cannot control my life fate destiny and i don't like it

blehh what is this

wondered if really,
are ahlians more chio-er, better, sexier, likeable?

i just wondered
about what me and JW discussed in the underpass
why couldn't some people who are obviously chio have people like/zhui?
i told her it's about the laws of attraction and told her it didn't really apply to me as well...
maybe it really is,
or maybe all the guys just like lians/bitches more bah...

i wondered, like how JW did,
if guys that don't see looks exsisted
perhaps to ask for that is selfish considering i see looks as well do i?
but maybe,
for people like JW and the rest who don't
it's really unfair bah...

i really do wonder
if i can really make it
maybe i just need to belive in myself
and be over confident
and drop from high high
and hurt myself more than everything
or maybe i can continue to indulge in self pity
and not drop at all
yet maybe not have the will to climb at all
but i shall survive
i shall
somehow
or another
and show the world
or at least myself
that
i can do it
yeah right.

if i continue wondering
i should reach the point
where i would wonder
who would remain true none at all
who would be true
who maybe is trying to be true and probaly fail, like everybody else
who i can trust
who i really care about are there truely any at all? someone give me a ruler to test my heart

really
there is no point at thinking so much at all
since it wouldn't make any difference
words are jus words
that's what i have been thinking all the while bah
that's why i called what jw told me somebody told her, an excucse
but it doesn't matter again,
cause nothing really matters in this world bah...
things come and go
i really don't understand it bah
kong jiu shi se
se jiu shi kong~

realize what JW said to me in wisma
made an impact bah
even though i said it doesn't affect me though i was obviously affected
guess that line
not only reflect on me, but on him as well?
i want to be perfect
that's my dream,
what i want to be,
since p5 bah
something you won't understand,
the reason why i still take up so many things during my olevel year
guess that's for slacking all this while on my road of life

i'm too ambitious bah
guess that's in the gene
and maybe thats why i fail so much bah
more dreams more failures
maybe i'm too ambitious for my own good
maybe i just don't know my limits

if i tell you
i want to be super chio like xinlin level
super smart like my cousins though is pump money de
super glam like Trya
super kool like hip hop yo
super smooth like Kurosagi
what if i tell you
i never wanted to be cinderella
but snow white
would you laugh,
and tell me it's impossible?


guess it's cause' i'm too superficial and imature to understand chim-er things in life
or to apreciate individual beauty
or whatever but
i guess
this is me

went 2 watch benjamin button durin flag dae
v nice show dou v sad
heng nvr watch dhis on 140209
if nt chamm
cried like siao
like arnd 10 times
evityme sth happen/qt ple die cry liao
record only arnd 5 min of the show i cried le
siao e story very sad
dhen show fin at 3 e show arnd 200min siaaa
dhen stone at orchard with empty tin
dhen chionq 2 tpy c cn qt anth nt
dhen ltr qo baq 2 amk at arnd 4+
we late until e person nvr weiqh =D

went baq to fareast find pressie
buey pai larh shou huo,
what we bouqht fer bc reli v nice =x
dhen eat qo cotton on
end up empty handed
i nd buy myself a pressie
emo-ed all e wae home as above...

tomorrow would be a better day bah
at least if i manaqe to find e energy to prac dance + warm up
maybe i became weak and timid over the years bah
im qona learn break danceeeeeee
abit nia dou,
bt still! =DD
lala
dou i kan do a baby freeze till nw
bt i was half wae ytd
maybe later! i try aqn! muhahaha

quotes

我知道我变漂亮了 -- whole song
Cause if my heart breaks, It's gonna hurt so bad. -- Walk away acutally whole song

guess this should be all though there should be more of the forgotton quotes
i'm feeling better ba
after this verbal diarrea
now it's time for maths bah,
plane geometry,
here i comeeeeeee zzz

x-Julia




Life's Complicated. Nothing's gonna change it...
4:46 AM


♥ Sunday, February 15, 2009

BOOOOO

Current Status:

Dirty - haven bathe =X
being fann by some asshole =.=
wah asshole he sark despo freak who want have bf age 21 or something please tell me i got two lobang you can choose wad kind of guy u wan u wan 16year old other race also can try =.=

Need To DO:

Maths 3 qn
chem revise
pack room!
count money!
um pack bag
do lit!

Rants:

wahh alot of tinq on my mind nw bah
dno which 1 2 start wif
shld start wif e 1 i ll most lykly forget in e nxt few secs...



i don't know what you are talking
i seriously don't
i don't even know what he or what they are talking.
i just know i belive what he says
cause' i know him more and he's at least 1 of my closest friends
i don't know why you choose to belive them or maybe i do, the more the merrier, or maybe you just like them more
i don't know if i'm wrong
but all i know is 朋友, got problem u don't help/side, is 不够 sister
i don't know about you or everyone else bah
maybe cause' i was once in an environment where i could see at least abit of wad yi qi and how you can live freely without caring about the rules means
that i think, i wouldn't side whats right, but just care about the people close bah

i just think that even if he's at fault, which he isn't, at least according to my POV
it doesn't really matters to us, unless you're buey song for donnoe what reason larh
and the other party isn't totally right at all. unless you think he is larh

don't know bah
maybe you really don't understand that 人是会变的
and psch friends isn't really easy to keep moreover if you're everytime the extra want, he like her, as you always said
but whatever, if you want full story, you can beg like what i always need to do, i'm tired of it i guess
it's again, none of our buisness

i always aim to be 够 sister bah, puting it in an ahlian way,
i guess its the only way i can accurately express what i mean
i had said before and i will say it again
you, my friends and kor are more important before the others, excluding my famil members >.> unless you proven youself like the others an nolonger deserve/want it or something
seriously, whatever i don't really care actually i guess or maybe i do, deep down, but then, thats deep down

she was born alone and shall leave alone
thou who join her hence shall leave her one day
who is thee for her to care?

i guess we are all like blind people figuring out the elephant
but i guess your view is bias bah,
maybe mine too,
when in times of need,
who do we seek?
who would truely give aid?
who do we truely need?
something i wrote on the glass, seriousl wondering
it really depends on how we look at it bah

you told me many things i might have heard or might not have thought of it at all
i heard many things i had wanted to know, but maybe not want to hear
they could had said many more things that could be true, or just one side of it
he had said some things which i hope were true, or as you said, lies
but all this could be a misunderstanding which we have no need to settle though i do feel involved

i still think you 不够 sister even though i know you won't be bias
nor do you belive in such stuff
nor would you say you care
or maybe i'm just accusing you,
and if i'm, i'm sorry and would take the words back though they are already there, but whatever

iraq need rebuilt country
not enough reserves
kuwait, a small country happen to have some more oil reserves
iraq anyhow blame kuwait for using slant tech in hopes of gettng some money
kuwait, afraid that iraq would be guilty, and feeling bullied refused
because of many other reasons building up tension,
iraq war kuwait
UN n US help kuwait win
iraq not happy form terriosom group
transitional terrisom group now ulti
what to do?
though maybe people like the bloody ang might say is kuwait stubborn blah blah


2nd thing:

on 13th feb =.=
e bloody ang
stupid sia i have absolutely no respect for her

she's firstly lazy:
she keep saying ' i cannot possibly go through everything with you all right'
this is down right lazy =.=
how can a teacher say that?
he/SHE is obviously not trying her best and is obviously not being hardworking right?

secondly she's irresponsible
she doesn collect / check / mark our workbooks!
and she doesn't count how many worksheet is to be passed down the row, and merely say
' i don't count how many worksheets there are, you all just wait for the the worksheet to be pass back' or something like that =.=
wtf
even i now start to count liao =.=

thirdly she is boring and does not produce results
okae im obviously picking on her on this 1 as it does not mean anything,
but her ppt are all from the txtbk and she is obviously slow and unengaging as compared to almighty kamal
dno what 4-2 4-3 4-4 's ancestors did that made them had kamal T.T
and it's cause' at the start of the year
she said that different teachers have different style of teaching
and ' so lets try our best to work together to acheive your grades' or something like that =.=
phuck arh!

hmm still got what
ohya she don't like me i don't like her. =.=
totally does not deserve my respect =.=
what do you think?
i abosoultely think i wasted 2hrs of my life per week listening to her lesson sia =.=

3rd thing:

im a bloody diamond
yesh i haven been polished or whatever mr leow likes to call it =.=
yeahh
and i got the bloody chye as e TIC
whatever~
but my hpy got the almighty kamal and i'm absoloutely buey song about it
bt whatever~

4th thing:

yeshh we made e teh de jealous!!!
strawberries are love-ed =DD
ate > 1 box of it muhahaha
lala
her face her looks her words
ulti shuang-ness =]

5th thing:
valentine's day was perfect
seriously i realize as long as its you everything is find
and buey pai seriously =]
ilovemnm.com.sg

6th thing:

i do not know what to do with my flowers tomorrow go school ask michelle...
blehh
please do not die / bian chou overnight! T.T

blehh somebody still don't want wake up... blehh


list of quotes!

受伤留下的痕迹 我愿意 都透明 全部透明 -- 王子的新衣
Baby we could rock the night alone -- Geek in the Pink
You said no star was out of reach -- Because you Loved me i wish i could quote e whole song, actually i can... =.=

sometimes i wished you are always by my side
but other times i wished you didn't exist at all
love is 1 beautiful facade

some idiot don't want wake up i don't know how siaaa
hope his phone not in silent o.o
why busy le?! ahhhhhh
iamnotanalarmclock.com.sg =.=


thats all bah!

x- Julia =]

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Life's Complicated. Nothing's gonna change it...
7:04 AM


♥ Saturday, February 14, 2009

HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY!;D

muahaha.
bahchiuuuuuuuuuuu
love you too u this cutie yi zhi hua!;D
haha.you're not fei ok is too cute liao;D
and to yixuan and beeleng
i never emo~
ai yoh must tell ur how many time...
happy birthday lah yixuan!

but then i had a talk with 2 ppl yesterday
and then what i'm gonna say might sound emo
but then i zai san qiang diao
i am not emoooooooooooooooooooo~
is heartfelt feelings!
LOL

had a long long talk with 2 ppl yesterday
mostly should be their rantings but
but through their rants
i realised alot of things.

what we see
may not be the whole picture.
there's still a lot of things which we don't know about you
that's kind of creepy yea
since we've already known each other for close to a year.
the things that you've done and hid from us
if you son't want it to be known
then don't do it
or it will seem very fake.
you really should start reflecting on how your treating ur friends.
the way they treats you and the way you treat them back.
though friends are suppossed to help each other
but you can't just accept
you have to return them too.
friends are not something that you can use
and throw them away when you dun need them anymore.
your attitude sucks seriously.

Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
Don't know who my real friends are (anymore)
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream
Gotta pick myself up 'cause things are messed up

now i think i have already got my answer.
so it is really like that?
omg then you are seriously one big superficial person.
looks really so important mah?
now i am wondering if you have any true friends
since you choose your friends by their looks
get this:i won't want a friend like you too.
ni bu pei jiao peng you.

你还不懂 还是不懂
i think you still don't get what i mean
but it's ok.
we just have different views on that.
maybe sometime later
we'll see how and decide if i should tell you.

我想不透 我们的爱怎么.
when you asked me what i'm thinking
many times i chose not to tell you.
i'm not sure if i should.
maybe maybe
someday i would.
we'll see how....

the question you asked me last night
please tell me that you're just joking.
i do not want it to be true.
i was half awake
so please do not believe anything.
please and thankyou.

[我的天空今天有点灰]
-jiawen;D



Life's Complicated. Nothing's gonna change it...
12:20 AM


♥ Monday, February 9, 2009

IHATELIFE.COM.SG

i finally understand how Jim Carey in Bruce Almighty feels when his life was in the dumps
my life is breaking up lets analyse shall we...

School:
home work undone/do le dno put whr/dun feel lyk doin
test all for some reason cannot do well
cca totally disappointing don't want to talk about it since i think i got over it le
havin trouble with the teachers wonder why i din borther keepin imaqe in fnt of dhem le....

Family
nth much bah dun tok 2 dhem dhey dun tok 2 mi....
dhts abt it

Friends
quite kool bah nth much wrong

Luck
-32 isn a nice no. T.T

Money
(-50)+(-25)+(-40)+40+40 + (-20) = -55
wah lyk countin empathy lyk dht =X


ok dhts abt it

so its abt sch yo
haiz shld jy
march march lets wait fer march
dno bah haiz
lifes a mess yo
mayb aft awhile it ll settle dwn...
fck it siaaaaaaaaaaa

haiz i think my depression coming back le dno
last few days keep thinking if i really got depression not...
if got should be start from sec 2 after...
haiz maybe bah
depression is hard to cure and is like on off lorh so difficult to say...
maybe now coming back
or isit just my zi bei xin too hiqh? hmm
iammentallyill.

blehh
lets talk about today...
go sch zi-hiqh abit
seriously i think his fringe buey pai
mayb cuz i bcame bias too bt nvm if it makes you happy
slaacked the whole day dno wad happen much really...
think mab i shld listen in class?
bt Julia Png never listens in clas...
hmm dno larh
dhen left fer match
which i lost aqainstevergreen...
oni match sia feel freakin paiseh n disappointed
emo-ed in toilet ahwile
2nd tyme i tink i cried in e sch's toilet
hope tmr i wun b cryin...
i shal nt cry!
grr
haiz nvm

really envy people who are gifted/ shuo dao zuo dao/ have the potential / power to do whatever they want / accomplish whatever they are doing...
i guess i just don't have what it takes bah...
bobianzxzx right
i guess thats wahat you will call a loser thinking... hmm
blehh i don't want to go assembly tomorrow larh... wthh

haiz then emo-ed back okae not really that sad quite happy actually... or rather xf...
then bathed find clothes to wear...
i realize i got no nice clothes/ shoes! help!!!
igotnoshoe.com.sg
nevermind...
then started trying to copy maths notes...
ended up dno write what poem ._. ltr post...
i think its dumb... hahas suden inspiration bahh =X
i am a lit student yo!
which reminds me... lit project =.=

then now mj-ed
really tired to insert any sarcasm/hints/2ndmeaning/irony in the post today bah...
time to wake people up leeee


will you dive into the dark ocean, will you fly in the dark sky -- ??? dno anibodi noe pls tel mi



Ain't running till i kiss you goodbye
Ain't stopping till i got your heart
Aint seeing no nothing till i get you in my sight
Ain't going no where till i have you by my side
cuz i ain't got anything without you staying in my life
and nothing else would do to bring my blood back to their paths

running on the tracks, reacing out for our destiny
stopping by the roses just to pick ninety-nine for you
seeing all the wonderfull things aour paths would bring
going to show you i'm everything you wanted me to be
cuz loving you is the only thing i wanna do
and nothing is gonna stop me, not even you

i wanna share my days with you
we could smell the flowers, feel the summer breeze
or walk in the garden, sing under the trees
i could fly you all over the sky, play with you in the clouds
cuz if all this would make you smile
nothing is impossible, not even the deapest sea, the highest sky

oh baby i will do anything just for you
if only you could stay here forever with me
please say you love me, tell me you care
for your love is all that i need
and the moon is the only company we seek
baby please say yes to my world
i love only you

weee doneeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
super dumbbbbbbbb
like e stupid compo i made in english class =D
ilovemysiandiaomood!

some body is sad/angry/piss/frustrated and i dno what ta do >.< color="#000000">jus lyk hw i noe u wld be dhr fer mi

x- Julia

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Life's Complicated. Nothing's gonna change it...
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♥ Friday, February 6, 2009

Are you worth keeping?
that was the question i asked you
coincidently that was somewhat what i asked myself few minutes before when i was in the toilet
i asked how important you are to me
how much can you influence me
how much you can affect my desicions and everytime i think of this question, i end up in tears.
i really do not know anything anymore
last time i was sure of every consequences of whatever i did,
now i guess i took my shield for granted and didn't consider what will happen to him
im unsure of my dreams now seeing how much i changed how much you made me change
from hopping between different other friends to a constant one
this is so not me,
and i wonder why i ah buey sian
somehow, the words soon bah couldn't come out
somehow i ignored your expiry date anyway eat le also is sweet bah
i don't know larh
i can only do until here
you may be almost perfect
but i guess perfection isn't an excuse for everything actually is for about 80%
guess im tired of being in the middle bah got hurt even though it's none of my buisness

can't belive im writing this when i planned to write something nicer few days ago
nvm lets try to recall the feelings
but its like 海芋恋 become 曖昧 le...

the cuts on my hand, though not on purpose seem to tempt me more and more let there be blood~

just realize how important you were to me few days ago
how used i am to your presence now
how dependent im on you
how much i subconsiously refuse to let others in my mind
how much that is so not like me
how your shadow your presence your footsteps
all seem so familiar so close
yet
you cannot be my entire world
that is so not me not the old me at least
at least let me keep the stubborn part of me unchanged
the me that refused to let anything hurt me
the me that build a transparent wall around me so that nobody could see and i won't get hurt
the me that could pick up things and drop them without considering
the me that treats everything like shyt
the me that won't care a fuck about you about her about them about life
the me that was untouched

many things had happened
and i cannot say i regret doing them truthfully
i just hope the ones i care for won't get into trouble and hope for the best

lastly my birthday was perfect thanks to you guys
especially my ke ai jiao zhu, Frederick n Weilonq <3
no thanks to someone who forgot my birthday of couse hmphh but you're forgiven =]

ss test was horrible =.=
didn't manaqed to finish + didn't hand up my last page =.=
maths test hai hao bahh
don't think i will score well x.x

stressed
what should i do? the answer is simple actually
is somebody being xiao qi?
i wouldn't say so though i been through this type of major suaning session worst than yours
trust me
but for me, the people weren't joking

freakin tired don't feel like continue-in or finishin my maggie mee...
i wana sleep
maybe i should kun for awhile bah...

And guess what I'm having more fun -- So What

x- Julia

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Life's Complicated. Nothing's gonna change it...
8:40 AM



sorry is a big word.
you don't say sorry for the sake of saying sorry
when you don't even feel remorse.

do you know what kind of impression you are giving me?
a totally insincere person.
to you
apologising is like the right thing to do
but deep down you dun feel sorry actually.
you don't reflect.
you don't think about what it is that you've done wrong
and the very next day
ok not so kuazhang
after a while
you repeat the while thing again
you don't reflect and change.

everyone have feelings ok
not just only that one person.
there's no wrong in you showing extra love and concern for her
but then
you must get it that even friends have feelings too
but if u think that friends then can anyhow kaopei
then sorry lah
we think differently and we have different views.
ren nai you xian du ok
there's a certain limit to everything
not saying u wrong or anything
but then get the idea that there's something call a limit
dun go overboard.

you dun treat a person however you want
and only treat them better when you need help from them
it is kns shit can.
friends are not like poker ok
not something that you can throw
and pick it up again when u need it.


Life's Complicated. Nothing's gonna change it...
12:03 AM


♥ Wednesday, February 4, 2009

i can't understand.
loads loads and loads of things about life.
i want to but i can't.

why is it that you don't seem to get what i mean
why is it that you just don't admit it
why is it that you don't understand that u hurt me at times
why is it that i can't speak my mind out
why is it that i feel so distant to you now
why is it that i don't even get to talk to you everyday not even a hi
why is it that it seems so hard to talk to you sometimes
why is it that we can talk so much today
why is it that things changes
why is it that people are so xiao-qi
why can't people just forgive and forget
why is it that ur still the only one that understand me best
why did it turn out this way

sometimes the things i tell you
you seem to understand
but the next min
you turn and repeat the thing that i dun wish that you would do
it's obvious now
you need that person more than you need me
sometimes i think i dun even need to appear
many things untold
many things unknown
i feel unimportant though u told me before about my importance.
that person seems to have already taken that place of yours
think,ask and search your heart
do not lie.
[You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want, but I know, I know]
i try not to write 'forever'
because i'm not sure how long we can go
i'm afraid that everthing will repeated
the faith and feeling that i've put in will be thrown back to me in the end
like i'm a fool.
sometimes the words that you say
i know you might not mean it
but do you think about it?
sometimes it does hurt
it leaves a scar
but still i smile at you
pretending there's nothing
but actually it hurts.a lot.
A smile is the best way to deal with difficult situations. Even if it's a fake one. Used properly, it can be used to fool anyone.
this guy's pm.so real so true. i guess i'm quite a pro at this?

sometimes during recess
i look at you away from me
and i think about the days back then
i didn't understand then
that seeing you could be such a wonderful thing
though i may seem happy
but deep down i'm staring at you and thinking why is it that everything have changed
i used to see you everyday
going home with you was fun too
being nagged by you for eating unhealthy food
being forced to eat healthy food
being critised for my lousy sense of clothes
things that you taught me when we shopped
celebrating our birthdays together
everything that we used to do together
it seemed so distant...
i understand that nobody can live in the past forever
everyone has to move on
but sometimes
i pray and hope that time can be turned back and frozen
cause i want so much to just have you by my side again
holding the good times that we shared together close to my heart.

i met you at the station today
and we talked so much
even i was surprised
we talked about our pri sch days present days and future.
haha it was fun though some moments of akwardness?is it spelt like this?
if give a choice i think i would preferred those days actually
even though many things were worse than what i had now
but in overall it was better
i need not think about my actions
need not think about relationships between people
need not care about studies
need not care about future
need not care about anything,anyone.not even yourself.
our talk made me remember this
and how much we've changed
we 3 used to be together
but look at now
it's almost impossible to find us 3 together.
or should i just say it is impossible...

why are some people so ji jiao?
some things just let it go...
better for everyone.
less troubles less worries.
i mean yea we're in the wrong
but i'm sure that even if you had the chance you would take it too
dun act guai.
this is human instinct.
no one is right or wrong
even if there is
i believe everone has a part to play
because i believe that it takes to hands to clap
you need 2 different opinions to have an argument
which is yours and ours.
we have differnt logics and ways of thinkings
but obviously we are smarter and have better logic.

the things that you told me the other day
i still think about it
i want to know if i am in the wrong
or is it because i am really taken for granted easily
but there's nobody to tell me
i want to change if i;m in the wrong so somebody please tell me
but if i'm like what you said being taken for granted...
cause i have a good temper...
wo bu zhi dao~
but dun like the feeling of being taken for granted
unneeded and unimportant
as though i can just disappear and you won't notice.
hmmmmmmm.
i realised you are the only one
though we are not as close as before
there are still many things that i can confide in you
many things that i couldn't tell many others...
my dear friend i hope you will always be my friend;D

i don't believe the things that they are telling me
and there's no need to.
friendship.that's all.

i shall stop thinking about these kind of things
i am going to be old in a few days-.-
think too much will have more wrinkles...
and kill more brain cells.
i will need a lot brain cells this year
better keep them all for something more useful.


i think nobody cares why i'm writing all this shit but paiseh i need somewhre to fa xie also.
why am i crying while writing this?

freak.i am not weak.i shall not cry.stop this.


[it's time to say goodbye...]
-jiawen


Life's Complicated. Nothing's gonna change it...
5:44 AM


♥ Sunday, February 1, 2009

LAST POST FROM 15TH YEAR OLD JULIA!

muhahaha turnin 16th in 28mins! muhahaha

new year wishes!

olvl qt at least 5 As!
evitinq sun sun li li!
b mre glam!
b mre nice!
b mre xin fu!
b mre happy!
cure my depression?!
save/qt mre $!
drop/destory less tinqs!
qt evitinq i wan?!
lose weiqht!
qrow taller!
less childish!
more evil!

muhahaha cn watch nc16 show le!
somebody reminded mi on fri! muhahaha
no nd filter show liaozxzx
anth wan watch jus watch! muhahaha dhish ish life yo!

lala okae i qib up on my ss liaozxzx ltr print free read =DD
lala maths dun care muhahaha
phy okae bah ltr read oso =]
i tink i hab mre interest in phy dhen ss =X

lala nw ish 1136!
i love my flor baobei! shesend mi msg jus nw bt dhen i tink she tink my bdae on 1st bt nvr
she col mi baobei <3>
i knew she ll accept my ai 1 dae! =]
muhahaha

i tink somebody 4qt my bdae dou... hmm nvm he rawk anw <3

qona hear guitar ltr i tink =DD muhahaha
hope ish happybdae wanted to hear it since last wk...

muhahaha
im in a qd mood dou im tryin ta supress sth zz!
saw sth dht dno y make mi suan suan wan punch sth de blehh
mayb its lyk wad he said bah...
blehhh hu lai deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =X

blehh okae im feelin it mre common b happpy =D

lala went to eat wif my grandmother godmother n family
ate 4 crab pincer <3>
i love crap sia! pepper!
finally hab yu shen wif salmon!
dhen my bro tel mi thurs my yushen oso qt salmon bt v little
no wonder i din even qt half =.=

looking forward to tmr! sakae!
cn eat all e salmon i wan
dou i jus ate alot last wk x.x
nvm if im happy im hunqry!

fckin bastard im J_____s did i jus sae dht?
i tink fck it sia nvm relaxxxx
tmr tmr tmr =]
ponin trainin
ponnin my cake
haven buy pressie
haven do phy
haven do ss
haven do maths
die

fck i wan noeeeeeeeeeeeeee
okae random tokin wif some quy hu dun wan tel mi sth i wan noe =.=
eeeeeeeeeeeeee
stop qibin mi fu yan ans i wan kill pple le

fckfckfck tsktsk
okaeeeeeeeeeeeeee

tmr qt ss test heck...
dou i wana show e pple i cn do it! blehh
nvm

ohya! i noe hw to manipulate quotes frm haoting le! cn onself make playlist! muhahaha
=] im a geniussssssss

no quotes fer today cuz i nw cnt tink of anth else cept fer e stupid ans fer my stupid qn which some stupid person dun wan qib =.=

8min to 16 =]

Happy Sweet Sixteen Julia.

x- Julia =]





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Life's Complicated. Nothing's gonna change it...
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