wah fck seh e only wrd dht cn describe 2dae is wtf
if its even a word in the first place
m nw listening to pokemon =/ hopin it ll cheer mi up
thx fer cheerin mi up todae =]
2dae kns ba all does subjt i tot i pass fail n vice versa =/
shld haf qone to buqis bai bai wif jiawen on fri =xx
but whats done is done ba i only have my stupid self to blame which i may continue to blame n remain pathatic n indulge in self pity but dht will only make me more pathatic *inertia*
4qt wad paper qt 1st larh all i noe i was tryin nt to cry fer e entire 1-2hr++
even aft i gt baq the bloody amaths paper which i failed i stun fer 1min sehh
then when e eng paper come i totally break dwn liao
kns man band 1 cfm cnt qo in derhs zz
im sorry
hence i emo diao fer a while bt dhen nvm i aft 5min qo find pple to cheer myself up
ltr qt baq lit... 35/50 lehs! freakin happy! gt 8 9 10 8?? freakin kool muhahaha
ss oso did quite well ba... 29/50 =DD no wait dhts v little! bt anw i pass ba...
went to emo state when leow told mi my l1r5 >30 lyk totally wtf sia
dht tyme my mine oni qt my lappy, hp n 面子 cfm die =/
dhen nxt is i 超对不起 my parents de D=
kns lorh bt i qt study de dno dnodno!
dhen i was cryin lyk madd in e toilet repeatly tinkin abt dhis stuff
dhen e farni tinq was when MR LEOW 骗 mi in2 comin dwn dhen i saw michelle chew outside e cubicle!
mr leow i noe ur innocent bt dhen its nt jiwen fault either n e fault mus qo to sumbodi =]
i climb until 4th story lehs!!! stil qt sec 3 pple =.=
she told mi a v sad news which i m stil v trama by it =/
anw ltr manaqed to eat n cheered up abit
thankyou Daphne i love you alot alot fer cheerin mi up
of cuz Jiawen n Daili played a part for Daphne <3 lurhhs ="]" tok ="X" dhis ="DD">
dhen ltr bio which mi n jiawen kip squibblin on e paper dhen chan was lyk
'Julia wad is on your mind now'
dhen i was lyk um *checks paper* results...
bt freakin farni e paper hor mi n jw were kinda cursin a 'her' but dhen our 'her' are different dhen v cute/werid lol
'I want to make her smile disappear' the paper shows.
reli dno why i m havin such chidish thoughts
wad are we reli competin for?
the final outcome in life? studies? fame? appearence?
or is it jus me? m i reli childish?
shld i stop?
dhis is so nt mi isn it?
i dun see u as an equal, do i?
anw its mutual aft some tok wif some frens which i quess dhey r still mine?
isit jus target mi or others? y so mani pple dun lyk mi? isit my fault? shld i start carin? lyk fer wad seh =/
v chaotic lurhs e schedule i dno when is when i dun even noe when is spa? cept fer its lyk within e nxt 100 hrs >.< made us pay 2k == jus cuz dhey dun wan qo e jap ambassy lyk jus qo larh wun die de wad =.= 25k lehs!!! wahpiang
finally... i gues im reli tired i jus wna relac n haf 48 hrs in a day
mayb i had it le bt its nt enuf
olvls is v impt bt its nt evitinq isit? mayb it is but dhen...
mus i qib evi sinqle enerqy towards it? i shld its e only rite tinq left to do ba...
bt dhen... its reli tirin n dno stress ba dno if i cn make it...
i nda cry sumhw...
i nd a dry pillow or jus a shoulder
'when the best is not enough, what should i do?'
lol dhis alwaes appear somehw or other aft evi xam =/
dhis post v long ps fer rantin bt dhen dhts wad dhis blog is fer =]
ohya thx fer e mani pple dht tried to cheer mi up b4 recess dht includes weilong rmb hearin his voice... joyce? florence jiawen syazwan n dno hu liao =XX thx anwww~
x- Julia
J(1+W)=Julia+Jiawen