Are you worth keeping?
that was the question i asked you
coincidently that was somewhat what i asked myself few minutes before when i was in the toilet
i asked how important you are to me
how much can you influence me
how much you can affect my desicions and everytime i think of this question, i end up in tears.
i really do not know anything anymore
last time i was sure of every consequences of whatever i did,
now i guess i took my shield for granted and didn't consider what will happen to him
im unsure of my dreams now seeing how much i changed how much you made me change
from hopping between different other friends to a constant one
this is so not me,
and i wonder why i ah buey sian
somehow, the words soon bah couldn't come out
somehow i ignored your expiry date anyway eat le also is sweet bah
i don't know larh
i can only do until here
you may be almost perfect
but i guess perfection isn't an excuse for everything actually is for about 80%
guess im tired of being in the middle bah got hurt even though it's none of my buisness
can't belive im writing this when i planned to write something nicer few days ago
nvm lets try to recall the feelings
but its like 海芋恋 become 曖昧 le...
the cuts on my hand, though not on purpose seem to tempt me more and more let there be blood~
just realize how important you were to me few days ago
how used i am to your presence now
how dependent im on you
how much i subconsiously refuse to let others in my mind
how much that is so not like me
how your shadow your presence your footsteps
all seem so familiar so close
yet
you cannot be my entire world
that is so not me not the old me at least
at least let me keep the stubborn part of me unchanged
the me that refused to let anything hurt me
the me that build a transparent wall around me so that nobody could see and i won't get hurt
the me that could pick up things and drop them without considering
the me that treats everything like shyt
the me that won't care a fuck about you about her about them about life
the me that was untouched
many things had happened
and i cannot say i regret doing them truthfully
i just hope the ones i care for won't get into trouble and hope for the best
lastly my birthday was perfect thanks to you guys
especially my ke ai jiao zhu, Frederick n Weilonq <3
no thanks to someone who forgot my birthday of couse hmphh but you're forgiven =]
ss test was horrible =.=
didn't manaqed to finish + didn't hand up my last page =.=
maths test hai hao bahh
don't think i will score well x.x
stressed
what should i do? the answer is simple actually
is somebody being xiao qi?
i wouldn't say so though i been through this type of major suaning session worst than yours
trust me
but for me, the people weren't joking
freakin tired don't feel like continue-in or finishin my maggie mee...
i wana sleep
maybe i should kun for awhile bah...
And guess what I'm having more fun -- So What
x- JuliaLabels: somehowdedicatedtoyou
Life's Complicated. Nothing's gonna change it...
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