?'You'll never know what's in for you'
phrase from The curious case of Benjamin Button...
guess it's true bah...
who would know?
i want to be in control of my own life fate destiny
but who on earth could do that?
few can do so much bah...
and the few,
are either
very very very rich like Donald Trump <3 color="#000000">and maybe forever
be like the top 3,
and since i don't want to be very poor,
i cannot control my life fate destiny and i don't like it
blehh what is this
wondered if really,
are ahlians more chio-er, better, sexier, likeable?
i just wondered
about what me and JW discussed in the underpass
why couldn't some people who are obviously chio have people like/zhui?
i told her it's about the laws of attraction and told her it didn't really apply to me as well...
maybe it really is,
or maybe all the guys just like lians/bitches more bah...
i wondered, like how JW did,
if guys that don't see looks exsisted
perhaps to ask for that is selfish considering i see looks as well do i?
but maybe,
for people like JW and the rest who don't
it's really unfair bah...
i really do wonder
if i can really make it
maybe i just need to belive in myself
and be over confident
and drop from high high
and hurt myself more than everything
or maybe i can continue to indulge in self pity
and not drop at all
yet maybe not have the will to climb at all
but i shall survive
i shall
somehow
or another
and show the world
or at least myself
that
i can do it
yeah right.
if i continue wondering
i should reach the point
where i would wonder
who would remain true none at all
who would be true
who maybe is trying to be true and probaly fail, like everybody else
who i can trust
who i really care about are there truely any at all? someone give me a ruler to test my heart
really
there is no point at thinking so much at all
since it wouldn't make any difference
words are jus words
that's what i have been thinking all the while bah
that's why i called what jw told me somebody told her, an excucse
but it doesn't matter again,
cause nothing really matters in this world bah...
things come and go
i really don't understand it bah
kong jiu shi se
se jiu shi kong~
realize what JW said to me in wisma
made an impact bah
even though i said it doesn't affect me though i was obviously affected
guess that line
not only reflect on me, but on him as well?
i want to be perfect
that's my dream,
what i want to be,
since p5 bah
something you won't understand,
the reason why i still take up so many things during my olevel year
guess that's for slacking all this while on my road of life
i'm too ambitious bah
guess that's in the gene
and maybe thats why i fail so much bah
more dreams more failures
maybe i'm too ambitious for my own good
maybe i just don't know my limits
if i tell you
i want to be super chio like xinlin level
super smart like my cousins though is pump money de
super glam like Trya
super kool like hip hop yo
super smooth like Kurosagi
what if i tell you
i never wanted to be cinderella
but snow white
would you laugh,
and tell me it's impossible?
guess it's cause' i'm too superficial and imature to understand chim-er things in life
or to apreciate individual beauty
or whatever but
i guess
this is me
went 2 watch benjamin button durin flag dae
v nice show dou v sad
heng nvr watch dhis on 140209
if nt chamm
cried like siao
like arnd 10 times
evityme sth happen/qt ple die cry liao
record only arnd 5 min of the show i cried le
siao e story very sad
dhen show fin at 3 e show arnd 200min siaaa
dhen stone at orchard with empty tin
dhen chionq 2 tpy c cn qt anth nt
dhen ltr qo baq 2 amk at arnd 4+
we late until e person nvr weiqh =D
went baq to fareast find pressie
buey pai larh shou huo,
what we bouqht fer bc reli v nice =x
dhen eat qo cotton on
end up empty handed
i nd buy myself a pressie
emo-ed all e wae home as above...
tomorrow would be a better day bah
at least if i manaqe to find e energy to prac dance + warm up
maybe i became weak and timid over the years bah
im qona learn break danceeeeeee
abit nia dou,
bt still! =DD
lala
dou i kan do a baby freeze till nw
bt i was half wae ytd
maybe later! i try aqn! muhahaha
quotes
我知道我变漂亮了 -- whole song
Cause if my heart breaks, It's gonna hurt so bad. -- Walk away acutally whole song
guess this should be all though there should be more of the forgotton quotes
i'm feeling better ba
after this verbal diarrea
now it's time for maths bah,
plane geometry,
here i comeeeeeee zzz
x-Julia
Life's Complicated. Nothing's gonna change it...
4:46 AM
J(1+W)=Julia+Jiawen