IMBACK!!!
yeshh after being inactive for so long, i finally have the courage to post something without trying to put some blog viewer counter on =.= (private story which probaly nobody would wanna listen blehh)
yeshh reason for posting: im home alone and im freakin lonely =[
2nd reason for posting: decided not to procastinate this post and wanna put my thoughts from the last few days in words
Just thought about how human change their minds so easily
or difficult-ly
like imagine one day you were exclaiming how you hate this person and this kind of people,
and some other day,
when you probaly forgotton of the comment you last made
and starts to like that person
its espcially funny,
when you had influence some other people from your previous comment
and now you have trouble trying to figure out what the hell you was/is thinking now
like me.
It goes with things as well bah
or style or just any random stuff
like this random thought
Actually
i thought about how fast a person can change his/her mind on the person he/she liked/loved
heard a story about this guy whose girlfriend of 2 years left him because she realized there is some other guy in her heart or something =.= (not my buisness nor my story)
i thnk that is a lame excuse
there's probaly other external factor or something but still
the point is
it led me to remember why i had philiphobia in the first place...
the commitment thingy sucks
but i guess it's essential...
how come i cannot get to the point >.<
okae lets get to the fucking point :
some things need to be made clear bahh
to me at least in words x.x
fill up the missing info
1)
ithinkilikehimhelikemetooiguess
butourstatueskeeplikethatforaveryfuckinggoodreason
ourparentshavenoobjectionsiguessatleastformine
ihavealotofinterestinknowingwhohasbecauseofmykponature
buthaveabsolutelynointentionsofcaring
callmewhateveryouwantbahbuteverythingelsethatoncematteredtomestillmattersofequalimportanceiguess
2)
just cannot take it any longer must say this out but i only dare say it in words so here goes
this blog have no bloody viewers and im proud of it
hardly anybody views it
and only one person i know so far link it
and probaly like less than 10 people read it before
and i bet there are only a few of them read it regulary =.=
so don't anyhow talk shit say what alot css ande nyp people read
you think i xiaxue is it?!
this blog for me to rant
for me to voice out my opinion
for me to remember what happened in my life
thought i know that this is posted on the world wide web and can be viewed by anybody whos wants
and i ought to take responsibily in whatever i say,
and i do i guess, to a certain extend
to the extend that no specific names would be mentioned,
or if they are, probally of no importance or to describe an event
so i guess, you can't say anything bad about me bahh =D
*replace all 'me' with me + jw =D
3)
im studying for God sake
or actually, for my own and him<3 =.=
stop having the impression that im slacking! (to a cher, my parents people =/)
stupid
okae
i slack alot
but that doesn't mean i can't do well right?! acutally it does affect...
blehh
im being forced to study every single second of my life for don't know what 6pointer shit
and i just got afraid that i couldn't blehh
but the point is
i shall do enough to acheive my target
and i shall archeive my target... i guess... foryoukaeszz
4)
i wan Mr Kamal<3 lurhh
blehh
fullstop sia i don't want AA
bloody hell
i don't mind failing my ss, considering i failed it already =.=
because Mr Kamal<3 was strict in the marking or because i didn't do well for essay
blehh AAS lurhh
TODAY
lets start at 0000 =DD
was sleeping till 0200 =D
0200: did bio tys (see i got do work!) not bad larh all scored 75% (nutrition and transport!)
0315: woke some pig up / on com pig went back sleep played ms solitiare talked to bdae boi =]
0400: woke the pig up plaed dd!
0515: pig went back sleep continued playin puzzle game <3
0600: wondered why i want go school so early bathe
0635: out of the house!
0800: had the nicest walk to school so far =]
0920: watched 4-6vs 4-5 omg lurhh my kor stil rawks dou 4-5 won jinghui<3 syazwan the sexiest<3
1030??: watched match of the day, 4-4 vs 4-5
it started out hot i think
then it got hotter
me and michelle freakin jidong sia
esp me =D
i tink freakin kool
din reli regret mi nt bein inside, watchin is so much btr sia
totally sark that 4-4 won
but i guess cnt do anth abt it bah...
jus sark dht e 4-4 qurls plaed so rough =.=
proud of njx dou, kinda regret sayin her lan on tues
bt mayb as mich said, she mite qton scoldin =X
sark score was 9-10 =.=
it was 9-8 1st lurh wtf
sark sark sark
*()(@)_(_)%(_)@#$@)(#@
was reli jidong aft e match
sry i vent my anqer on u
1100: spamed lib printer blehh
1230: went to hub buy chicken then come back
i think i lie under the catorgory where i just diao people out of self defense or becaues i am afraid/ low confidence bah...
dunno... guess esp when im alone, people stare me i diao back bah >.>
1315: went back to school played with badminton people then ate pizza/kfc jiaolian <3
1715: went home kup somebody call, guess i got tired =X
1940: left house empty to the central sticky...
1830: return home to find house empty just as i left it =.= lonely lehhs =[
oh gosh im lonely =.=
wondered hw i managed to survive the day without you
but i guess everyday is geting slower wtf
haiz
bloged till now bah...
last thing i wana mention
somebody close to me somebody i liked told me today asked me causally
a question im quite sure about the answer, but ask myself too sometimes
a question many asked, but few agree/support
she wasn't one of the few bah
known her for years
she asked the second question
something i questioned myself until school ended
until i saw my reflection
until i realized
that i guess somethings cannot be explained
that prehaps im not good enough for anybody better too
that she, as well as many others, don't see what i see in him or at least portray to me as said by jw =.=
that i guess, unique people have unique taste bah as what px would suan =.=
my taste could be better, but i guess, taste are only for tastebuds and the nutritional value and others count bah...
lastly
i would really like to give 6 roses back to you
and
'i wanna be yours' they would say.
we could pretend all we want and remain childish
or we could come to a consensous maturally
defining what is wrong and what is right
and understand the situation as a whole
其实人很多 却觉得寂寞 是不是心理作用 OK不OK
This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us - Stop and Stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere - Stop and Stare
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone - Love Story
need ta mugg buaiizxzx
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