IM BLOGGGGGGGGGGING FINALLY AFTER 100000000000000000000M YEARS
yeahyeah finally bored enough to mian dui my feelings wahaha
it feels so werid to just look back at my last post... realize it was already over then...
oh well, conclusion, he was so yesterday, i have no one today and who knows who will come next tomorrow! i can move too
or actually i have a choice of who will come next tomorrow...
got cosplay festival sia... dno to go not... ...
shall rant about my boliao thots meanwhile... fill up the whole page yo!
1st thing that comes to my mind:
realize some guy wasnt as godlike as i thot he was
bloody asshole but my impression of him was based on looks in 1st place ._.
nvm hes still an asshole bloody hell got chiobu dun care other tinq liao
tink only his studies so impt walao study so much also no use lyk siying teh de arni kuan rite?
its lyk e group at first we all very excited i noe nw lyk nt v successful but still im disappointed as well!
but not disheartened lorh... i
really want to find out the best for our project and really succeed in it as well
we all wanted this project so that our record will look nice,
now u cn dsa quite cfm qt in dhen dun care liao isit?!
its called selfish lorh nowonder he last time also lyk dht call u selfish sia
if dhrs anybody i regret supportin, it ll b u
chickenwing
2nd thing that comes to my mind:
i wonder how long can a misunderstanding last,
i know some can last forever
i dun want ours to last so long, building a higher wall each day
it feels so weird talkin to u nw
treated u e best, is it not enough for u to belive me?
dno y she nd restort to lookin for FF larh...
mayb its jus pure friendship bt still...
could feel the distance widening between us even dou we are jus nxt to each other
what can i say/do to make us the same once more?
actually i qt it, or at least i qt a theory
u wan friends dhts all u wan no matter qd or bad or kns or from opposite cliques
u dun choose dhem its okae, its really fine...
but dun u tink its highly superfical if u double cross both sides?
i really doubt u understand e meanin of friendship... not that i hav ani rights to comment on it...
but still...
i ll continue treatin u e same... u dun noe hw impt u r to mi/hw much i lyk u
3rd and most impt thing:
i know alot of pple r happier dht me and him r nt anth anymore
i dno ur is happy dht im no longer with a 'sarky' person lyk him or what larh...
but all i know is everybody has deir weakness and strengths
i lyk his strengths n happen to lyk what ur dun lyk abt him cn?
dno larh bt same to friends,
to the pple i lyk i cn forgive n forget easily and dun reli care much abt deir weakness lorh... dun care if ur agree not larh
jus feel ur have no reason to b happy lorh
cuz its lyk im depressed and ur happy for me for becomin sad
know i dun appear as sad as im bt still...
u wan mi cry whole day qib u see mehs
even my parents understand that i sad lorh =.=
love my bros fer understandin me and e situation as well as truely say whats e best for me
jus wondered if somebody was happy cuz i am finally sad cuz i lost a zhui-qiu zhe, a future bf, somebody by my side, somebody who understands me, which is what she alwaes wanted
jus realize if it was true, what would our friendship be?
thot abt what was said in busstop ytd...
i look out for abnormal pple pple hu wld stand out in e crowd,
pple hu are special,werid, unnormal or jus specially talented in some areast
houqh i do not admire all, but still dhis is my taste lorh
like dun like is depend on brain waves lai de
too bad our signal nt same larh,
no nd discriminate until arni kuan
i noe ur e taste is ou xiang ji de
bt truelly, him, though imperfect is e closest to my perfect bf: Jay rite?
i admire yiqing also lorh + zhaoting + xinlin + kamal + alot other pplei even admire my hpy... admire deir strengths cuz i zhong shi dhem cnt arh?
i noe i sark im nt perfect everything my fault larh happy?
its fu yan i noe
bt if nt fuyan u wan mi say my real thots qib ur shoot/disagree mehs?
i understand sometimes i tink differently
bt dhts wad i want n ll nt change lo
i tink i wrong i say sryi dun tink i wrong bobian lorh
dun reli care no money earn no counted in exam no pple die
i cnt stand pple shoot de u try kena shoot by ur whole clique larh,
by e pple u grown to trust and liked so much
try havin dhem all go agnst u fer dno fck reason
and nt evityme i wrong lorhu imagine u say e blue pen blue, dhen dhey say black shoot u + suan till u xi cuz e pen is BLACK =.=
bt nvm larh i wrong ok i wrong
i qt shoot fwens until dhey die even dou dhey wrong b4 nt? i dun tink so rite?
i do wad i wan loit may be called spoilt,
bt i belive its e best way to treat myself n live life w/o regrets
i rather, i rather regret doin stuff dhen regret nt doin stuff bt wadever larh...
whats past is past lorh
dou it ll continue to haunt me for life i quess
nw i noe y qing evityme dun care say anth anth de
bt i nt evityme cn lyk dht lorh...
i hav emotions too n pride n zhi zhun
bt nvm its stil i wrong ok?
4th:
recently gt alot of pple kai shi mug lo
wtf man mugmugmug dun wan pei mi play walaoeh
lyk i no nd mug lyk dht sias
o gan chiong fer wad sia
i noe i lyk dht say my os dun qt qd qrades sure dio shoot de bt seriously larh
u miss out all e fun in life jus fer some dumb grades
which qt u into probaly a v qd jc bt stil u learn same tinq rite?!
mayb pirorities different bah...
5th:
tink im losin myself
feels werid the way i talk, e way i do stuff, e way i tink all different liao
its different frm hw i behave fer e past yr, and even how i usually behave b4 sec3 lehs!!!
feels lyk my EQ became 0 =.= ( dun care if ur tink it was already 0 liao)
bt e way i talk 2 pple
i cnt maintain a conv fer mre dhen 10mins i actually run out of tings to say
i cnt tink of anitinq random/cute/unusual/interestin to say lorh.... = I BECAME BORING
dhis sarks man dhis sarks alot...
also last time nomatter who i also cn talk to de
now i actually block pple to prevent dhem from talkin to me
dhis is bad man dhis is bad i might end up losin pple and regret it ltr on agn...
doneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee abt my rants wooo
haiz ohya i dun lyk faraday
he dumb hell smart so what man?
no nd discover e stupid emf/magnetic field tingy/transformers=.=/current tingy lorh...
walao if zhaoting or somebody nxt tyme also lyk dht make my children suffer more hor
i ll also jidong man!
1st wk of school jus ended nt bad larh...
lyk 1/4 of e class e chers absent =D
dhen we hav kamal<3 fer at least 1 period n bullied amy ang in e other =DD
class feels werid dou...
lyk i dno anth...
n nt in anth as well...
mayb dhrs jus isn anth... hmm
exchanged places with pple at e back...
complained to sombody dht it sarks cuz if dhey somebody elses,
at least i cn make 2 new fwens nw cn only leng leng de disturb jw nxt to mi D=
like chye more n more,
realize he reli dedicated cher hu has e students' interest at heartlike he ll jidong if u dun do stuff instead of ignorin u and he reli lyk sincerly want to chuan shou zhi shi to us...
dno hw say larh...
bt leow<3 is gona leave us fer 2wks or more...
haiz he left with 'don't miss me'
dhen i realize i reli ll miss him lo! D=
tml/ltr in e day dno hw sia...
want to run bt nd slp alot...
i shall run on mon! =X
shld i go e cosplay tingy? alone sia... D=
anw gtg... slp
dhis post was writen arnd 0300-0415 040709 bt shld b posted e nxt day cuz my internet kena off D=
0342am 050709
xuan jus signed off...
was complainin abt another FF lols CAI
tink i over said bad stuff abt her
bt seriously cnt stand qurls lyk her
qurls lyk her turn mi off qurls man =.=
today was borin
dou managed to plan to meet up psch pple tml~
shall hope no leng chang or sth...
read cai blog
realize my philophobia no cured yt even aft watch iswak ._. bobianzx D=
watched tyra banks<3 show jus nw... was abt male minds
dam farni discuss abt sex and yeah stuff
my bro dno wad was brazilian =X i tink jw dno either...
still tell him aft he asked fer 2mins... wondered if i said e wrong ting...
he was surprise hw i knew sia... read it off reader's digest i tink... n xiaxue's blog... >.>
reminded mi of hw i knew sth prono ytd...
seriously dno sia i rmb i qt watch de bt i seriously wun watch mus b click on somebodi qib mi e link... or watch wif bro ._. OMG DHTS EVEN WORST
i tink fb rawks larhh! lyk its e most entertainin tinq ever
n love discriminatin aqnst china pple wif qing lols dam farni stupid sia dhem
harrypotter <3
LIST OF MOVIES I WANT TO WATCH:
1) HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE -- my father say cn watch on saturday 110709 at night de or e earliest lyk zomq larh its e 1st few man woohoo
2) DUPLICTY -- no kaki abt spies v nice de
3) GI JOE -- lyk battle royale sia COPY bt still interestin...
4) ICE AGE 3 -- wads e point of watchin e 1st n 2nd n dun watch e 3rd?
5) EVERYTHING -- i love movies!
oh anybody heard of cube series e movie??
i tink its dam nice psychotic triller/horror/sci-fi
dam kool cn play durin chalet tink its dam interestin
watched half of cube 2 at 1am ._.
ok tata~ 0352 050709
oh im decidin whether my fav color is black grey red or silver ._.
black unlucky fer mi bt i love it
red too common
silver n grey i lyk dhem fer e least amount of time ._.
hmm...
就在一转眼发现你的脸已经陌生不会再像从前/总在刹那间有一些了解 说过的话不可能会实现 -- 吻别
音量太小 --大嘴吧
[x-Julia-x]
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